yugiohfreakXD

ever since almost a year that i had a fallout of a friend of 8 yrs i been doing ok so far. Classes still tough but I'm getting close to my goal, heck if i do well ill graduate next year!

But because of ties to that person and DA are so close i always feel like I will have a panic attack every time I come here. The website now brings me nothing but dread and anxiousness every time I log in to look at artist i still follow. I hate bringing up old problems that happen almost a year now but this anxiety wont go away. I wont mention who this person was as its irrelevant now and well not gonna waste time and energy. i made mistakes and i lived up with them and moved on to better things. In my heart and mind I already forgave this person and the other that hurt me as its the right thing to do. Forgiveness is not an easy thing but it helps with moving on and I did it. I hope the 2 of them are ok and doing whatever they want. (just don't ever contact me, i forgave but that doesn't mean i can trust the 2 of you)

But the anxiety still lingers heavily and sometimes its bad enough that i can only stay for a min or less and only erase and favorite posts (heck typing this makes me feel like my heart will rip out of my chest) . i hope this goes away with therapy and true friends.

I needed to write this so maybe less anxiety I will feel when I log in again. 

sorry for lack of posts I will post when I can. For now I hope everyone have a great night or day wherever you all are and stay strong during this pandemic. Things will be ok before you all know it~ <3

So I have been cleaning up my DA profile from some things that trigger me or are too cringing. Also removing things that I had from ex friends who we no longer are acquaintances due to circumstances, But besides all that school been going great and life hasn’t been more better~ anxiety levels are down (I still have some but mostly because of school) and been enjoying stuff I like! Things were a bit downhill because of ex friends but I still have others that been supporting me and making me feel better~ 

As for art I do plan to redo all my dog ocs and some humans ones I got ( the old dog oc designs make me cringe they really need an update)

Hope everyone has a wonderful day! ❤️❤️❤️

been almost a year since i last wrote a journal owo been busy with school and had a terrible art block heh. Only been drawing very little or not at all but I have been trying! Nothing new besides that i will try to draw and drop the commission prices i had up, besides no one is interested in it so why bother have them :3 anyways hope you all have a great day I guess :3

this person does awesome works of art and currently has commissons as of now! plz give them a try they are friendly and nice x3